...chikungunya ohh chukunginya...

everythings get started last saturday..,

i had some hangout with my besti's on the weekend,last saturday. after had a farewell party for Father Janoe (where me,yani and nuel got a task to decorating the room that will be used),we decided to spent this weekend to hangout at shopping mall. we leaved our office at 01.30 pm,and go to luwes first for monthly grocery shopping.

after a few hours in Luwes,finally we agreed to spend the remaining today go to GM,our favorit shopping mall yayyy :))
we came, check out some new clothes colection at department store, buy some cosmetics, looking for other items such bags and shoes which can make ourself looks more fabulous and gorgeus xoxo :)
and after felt so tired b'cause had been around those mall for 3 hours < omg, we didn't realized actually :P >, we go to the foodcourt area,has some resting and eating of course either gossiping wkwkwkw

time is shown at 05.30 pm which is the time we had to separated,go back home ourself. take back yosi first to her home and then i go home by myself. 
arrived at home at 07.00 pm and i felt very painfull throughtout all of my body. and in the morning after cameback from church,my mom and my dad bring me to the hospital. and the doctor said AKU KENA CHIKUNGUNYA !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@! #badan luar byasa sakit kyk dtusuk2,kpala sakit luarbiasa,gatel2 (krna kebanyakan dimsum isi udang T.T) dan lemes absolutely. drumah cm bs tiduran doank dtemenin ibuk,makasih Tuhan udah ngasih seorang IBU yang luar biasa mwah mwah luv u mom..:*#

bedrest for 2 days,finally this morning i decided to go to office. want to see my bro for the last time hiks..wish u all d best dear,,,c u at the other time,in better chances hopefully ..:))

we love u :)

a mess inside

yes i felt it,i felt my mind is boiling...cool in the outside,but boil at the inside :(

what what what??? why why why? a damn big question on my mind hmmm..

i feel okay actually,seems like everything just fine,so did my daily life but there is "something deep down inside my heart" which always remind me that "something" will happen sooner or later, and this is extremely not good. unfortunately i dont know what is that and whats gonna happen is still clueless :( #im so worry about my family,especially about my dad T.T#

btw,getting closer to the final days of my best boyfriend in office.yeahh nuel had decided to resign from his job,leave all of us,try to reach the better life out there hmm..we'll gonna miss u dear..:)


dear god..
 i know that all of this mess wouldnt easier to do,im just a human being,but i believe that im gonna conquer all of this mess with UR hands in my head. Be blessed sam :))

all is well..getting better..

fiuhhh...finally everythings get better...thanks God,i can handles myself back,after all of this mess...thanks God :)

everythings completely better,i think,i wish,,,
sudah baikan mbek sayang, financial problems will solved soon, tax duties has done (only just come to tax office and report,finally :D) and the wonderfull one is ARI'S coming home tomorrow at afternoon yayyy,...i really2 missing him so much,much much much so much miss himm :* :*

fyi, i really want to have this fabulous and fashionable wedges,ooouuwwww....

NB ::::  i think its perfect to wear at my bestie's wedding party oooh goosh i really love its colour,fabulous golden wedges :)) ( i'm considering to buy it,or maybe i can wear it to myself wedding party hahaha )

the worst 7th annual aniversary

what a tire day...i feel so tired,a whole body and soul :((

today is January 17th, ari's birthday and our aniversary. last night at 12.00 am i've sent some message to him. try to forgive him cause had been lost for 2 days off and called him by phone, wishing can hear his voice to say congratulation directly. i really2 miss him,very much...and i hope tonight we can say "missing" each other. but guess what i get?? he didnt pick up the phone,try again for a several times but i got nothing. he's completely turn off the phone...and finally i spent a whole night with CRIED!!!


and in the morning is not better.my mom woke me up and said that my grandma was die. oo my gosh, seemed like nothing could be worse T.T


really sad day,at the same time i expect the happiness in this our 7th aniversary...and all i can do is just CRYING along day,as usual..T.T


poor me :((

what a day

this morning i was decide to go to office in the afternoon,bcoz i should go to the police station for some theory exam in order to get driving license. this is my second chance,and i hope this is the last steps i could take before get that damn driving license >.<

and guess whatt,im FAILED AGAINN !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!

it makes me feel so desperate either angry at the same time. all i wanna do is burning this police station >.<
but i realized that only a moron person that doing moron things. and than i called my uncle,asking him for coming and help me to overcome all this mess. after back and forth for a while looking for an officer whose can "help" me,finally i had to pay THREE HUNDRED FIFTY THOUSAND rupiahs,what a damn expensive price only for a fucking driving license T.T
eventhough i had pay in a large number,im still have to wait to get that fucking driving license during 2 weeks later oh my god now what else ????? >.<


im really2 had a bad day,and i wish nothing can make it worst T.T




Nb : ari's already in Singapore since sunday morning. and as long as he in that country,we only can communicate each other by internet,my social network facebook and yahoo messenger. its really2 made me confuse and desperate. im so missing him. and all i wanna is hear his voice. but his not reply my message until this afternoon and i think i almost crazy... God help me so i dont think anythings which ridicolous T.T

my passionate

me time

i had such a lovely "me time" yesterday...completely fun and enjoyable :))

the best scene i love,cooooollll....:D

PS : three things which i really love,i never missed in my every "me time" :)

my 1st thong *__*

today seems like unordinary.....yeahh, i feel as sexy as giselle bundchen :D

wearing my 1st brandnew thong to the office made me really2 feel so damn sexiest hahahaha sounds ridicoulus right,but thats true,i feel it in my every single step this morning. and its awesome and proudly :))

i bought this amazing "thong'' in PGS last saturday when i was looking around for some hangout with my girlfriends, and i was in love with those damn thong at the first sight :P

i want it since a years ago but the only one reason why i didnt buy it soon is b'cause i still live with my parents include my dad absolutely and i cant imagine what will daddy think if he find my "magical underwear" in my laundry. i was very horrified if daddy will thinked that his baby girl has become a striptease dancer  hahahaha:D :D

for the 1st time i saw it,im still doubt,between take it or leave it. but after received some seduction from my girls finally i paid this fabulous thong yayyyy :D :D

** cant wait to show it to my Boy huwahahahaahahaha #drooling eyes xoxox#

all out in saturday

i dont know why,i just want to do this every saturday, i just wanna looking good in every weekend,feels like my boyfriend will come to pick me up and spent night together till sunday morning comes...:)

** surprises,my office's besty show me her picture when she was made some fitting for her wedding gown,oo my gosh,she's gonna marry soon,this july 30th.really2 happy for u dear...hopefully all goes well till "the day"...:* :) #party's gonna held soon#

cello's drama live

her name is anna,27 years old and now she is a wife either a mother of baby boy named ALLEN,yes she did,SHE HAS A BABY !! 

i cant believe it :(

she never told me anything about her wedding plan or her pregnancy. really2 surprised when i visited her in her grandma's house last week,i found her carrying a baby boy. still didnt believe if i didnt see cello's pict in her phone by myself. she was pregnant,with her big belly absolutely :((

i'm not happy for her instead,not that simple. im happy for her,that she has to be a mom,for her new lifehouse with her new husband either her cutest baby boy allen. but honestly im so disapointed,why should RUBENN??? very big disapoinment for me. i mean cello's to kind for that asshole, she's too valuable to be wasted..

but everything has done,no time to be sorry,life must go on as usual,like or not. but i always pray for my lovely sista cello,with her new cutest baby boy ALLEN. what a cute baby boy..i swear to try always visit him as often as i can do. live happily cell...im happy for u...:))

<  natanael gilly allen wif tante cantikk :))  >

<  greatest mom in the world :))  >

life must go on,sam !

last night was so terible :((

i saw,i heard my parents scream out each other, oo gosh that was really2 terrible. i have expected thats "those damn thing" will happen sooner or later, and last night has done!!
im so surprise that i wasnt cry at all. i just stand up,do nothing,just watching what they'll gonna do after that chaos they had done. i feel so angry either feel nothing at the same time. my mom's cried so loud,look like so beaten,its the first time i saw my moms cried loudly than ever,my dad looks so angry, and im still unmoved. i just watching.


i just tell my sista,sooner or later this is gonna happen,and all we can do only pray for them. nothing at all. just pray and i believe that Jesus's hand will repairing our family. Amen...

new years new hope new life

the wonderfull new years has coming,,lets welcome this new years with the biggest happyness and hope :)

seneng banget akhirnya tahun sudah berganti,gag kerasa udah 2012,padahal rasanya baru kemaren aku ktrima kerja di ww tercinta ini d awal tahun 2011,ech tau2 udah new years eve lagi,such a fast years huhh 

really big big big thanks to Jesus Christ for the wonderfull years in my entire life,the best gift and the best way for my life,my family and all off my dearest friend :)

resolusi tahun kemaren puji Tuhan sudah hampir semuanya kecapai,dengan segala usaha keras,banting tulang jungkir balik dan berdoa absolutely, aq bersyukur Tuhan mengabulkan hampir semua resolusiku. and i think my whole life was different now,life changes,everyody's changes, getting better than before and i really2 realized that i will never got that without my beloved ones JEsus..

Liburan akhir tahun inipun was soooooo wonderfull, with all of my family and my lovely dear Ari :))

aku merasa semuanya menjadi lebih baik sekarang,in every inch part of my life,personal life and social comunity either about my work. Tuhan begitu baik,kusadari betul semuanya itu.

my new resolution in the wonderfull years 2012 :

• be good marketing oriflame, as well as i can do
• try hardest to saving money
• no more wasting much money for the unnecessary things !!!
• start begin thingking about household living
• try to be the better person, to be more patience in every conditions
• and last but not least, PLANNING TO GET MARRIED, im 24 years old and ari seems like cant wait to marry me hohoho

have a wonderfull new life everybody...god bless :)