c u next time mbah Met :)

confession_pre easter

i've made some confession yesterday with Father Saptaka. so doubt at the beginning, b'coz everyone's told me that Father Saptaka can view deep down inside our heart and our soul. i'm so scared to get stripped and so worry if Father can see all of my "hoax" hahaha thats was terrible :D
and when its become my turn, my heart was pounding uncontrolled (soo childish hah :D) but finally i can start talking to the point slowly, i told to the Father all the weight heart i've been felt so far, all of my sin, my trespasses,and hoping that Jesus Christ's willing 2 eliminate it through Father Sapto. Amen

be reborn, be blessed everyone...the easter is coming soon...:)

short story between a friendship

first he called me "sweety" and lately he calls me "cinta" >.<


i dont know exactly what the hell happened with his mind, b'cause i thought he knew exactly that i have a boyfriend. i can't guess what's on his mind either his heart truly, or why he made my heart take some question which i really dont know its answer T.T


he's completely blowing out my head with all his strange attitude. sweet at this time, cool in other time, made me really2 uncomfort with his manner. i appreciate and loving all about his careness to me,everything which he has done to me, how he treated me and take care of me. i love our togetherness, how we spent our time together, thats was really pleasant. but i never expected too much about this relationship, and i also expect the same thing from him. we're just gonna be couple friends,no more, and will always be like that forever.


i'm sure we'll become a good friends. lets keep walking on the right way,in other way  no one can going hurt. i had someone who i want to be with as long as my entire life. i love u as a friend, i hope u understand..:))

old friend, new story

its always fun to meet again with an old friends who had not seen for a years. so did i, that was what i felt when i met again with doni, my old friend since we're on high school. he was working in jakarta as a marketing staff a years later. he called me a week ago, told me that he'll going home this weekend and promised would see me at my home.
and right, he kept his promised, coming to my home and knocking my door at saturday night last week. my momm was soo happy to see him again, very funny when i heard my mom calls him ''mas donny" hahahaha..


and then we spent our saturday night with watching movie at XXI (we watched john carter in 3D, that was amazing movie, we're really get surprised!). the movie ended at 10.00 pm, and continuing to drive all the way Slamet Riyadi street. show him all the things what happen in slamet riyadi's street every saturday night. we're visited ngarsopuro nighmarket, galabo and many entertainment center in this city. and our adventure ended with dinner at angkringan Gerok.


we had an amazing weekend, amazing quality friends time, and we've made a promise that we'll meet again, made an adventure like this again next month..


see you soon my dear friend...thanks for all ur attention as three days which so amazing. unfortunately i don't have any picture of both of us, poor me :)




ps,,
he left me with many big questions in my head, and its really2 made me so confusing fiuhh

terimakasih Tuhan hari ini tanggal duwa tujuhhh....yayyyy!!! time 2 have fun go mad with my besties, shopping mall, eat our favourite menus (munmun :D!) and visiting our fav karaoke place "redbox" hmm i thinks its gonna be my best day ever :D :D


have a very2 great times 2 everyone...:D :D

recharge time

never easy to build a relationship which separated by distance and time even we've been "together" during 7 years. we had a long distance relationship much better than others, proven with a fact that we can survive for seven years later. its not easy without many effort and sacrifice as u know. we've fought desperately to hold our respective ego so we can still together as a boyfriend-girlfriend no matter what happen, no matter how long we apart. and so far we made it, we're still together after all of the storm hit us. we're a strong and happy couples, at least that's what i felt to yesterday :(


i have my own ego, so did he, but i never expected before that starting now i have to rid of all of my ego, trying to unify the two heads with 2 different ideas where we can live happily more than before.
we've made a decision that we'll take a few days to calm down, just to refresh and recharge our brain so we can think clearly what is the main purpose of our relation. for me, i'll use this occasion to re-think calmly, clear all my killer instinct which uncontrolled lately. i just need a time to cooling down actually, thats it.




ps,,,
hun, i just want u to know, that as a first-born child i had a lot of responsibility to my family (something that u'll never know maybe!). many things that u don't know yet about my family's life. i have an impulse which i regard as my responsibility at least to give them something valuable. i want to give something proudly, especially for my mommy before i'm get married and leave them all. thats why i'm so adamant with my desires yesterday. u'r rejection completely made me so disappointed, u never know how much you've really made me sad. i was crying in the middle of the night for 2 days. it feels like that u don't give me any chance to make my parents happier,showing 2 my damnneighbor that i can provide something that is material. aku benar2 terluka sampe pikiranku kemana-mana dan aku luar biasa sedih. i've decided to recieve ur decision gracefully, i would'nt regret it, i just need more time to convince myself that i still can made my parents proud and happy eventhough i had married to you and no longer live with them. i'll be fine...

clueless

weekend's coming soon but i still don't have a plan how i'll spend my holiday to be with fiuhhh..i've asked ari to go home but he was reject :(
once thought to go to around jogja with my sista and miska, but poor me they were have their own plan. nongki with her hero#cuih# absolutely and miska still have to work in her new office hmmpht so what i'm gonna do without any friends??? yani's in jakarta, and retno will spent her time with her boyfriend whose coming from jakarta heuhhhh seems like my day's gonna be empty :(


maybe i'll spent my time by myself, get some "me time" yayyyy :D :D


have a wonderfull long weekend everyone :))

crazy traveLing

i had a wonderfull weekend trip with my bestie's,,yayy, we went out for some prewed photoshoot on last sunday. that trip was soo enjoyable and the craziest trip i ever had since we're a bestfriend. we're all very happy :))

 guess who beside me T.T

 cetho's new statue :)

 tried to get sexy look :D

 we're bestfriend :)

 the next most beautifull bride wannabe :D :D

 i love her make up, that's perfect cyinnn :* :*

 she's a beautifull bride :)

the happy bride&groom :))

we're all happy for u dear :))

ps,,,koko promised to take us for another fun trip later. and our next destination is....BALI yayyy :D :D

pilek attack! (again T.T)

went to the office with pale look, unshining face and reddened nose ouhh gosh i cant breath normally at all :(


i have cold, fever and cumleng made my morning today was so sucks. every i take my head get down, mucus hurtling faster. its really disgusting and annoy. but i have to try harder to get my health comeback soon,b'cause i'll go out with my girls for some photoshoot at yani's prewed tommorow morning :))


stop drinking ice and fried snacks, sam!! be aware!

eat this more often!!

 and stay away from this for a while!!

biggest happiness

thanks God i really really happy today...ari asking me (again!) to marry him and finally i said "YES"!! :))
started yesterday, we begin talking and planning about our wedding..god this is so amazing :)


thanks god,i'm so happy #big smile


ps,,,ari sent me a link to check out.love this one so much,as awesome as my dream :)

http://orori.co.id/lovebunch/lovering

judgement day has completed

lil different this morning,,i can felt ww sista's anger is gone slowly. yeah, after all off the damn secrets of this office opened gradually, now we decide to ignore all of the people who we think are the devils wekekeke..:D
just let it flow, we have learn so much new lesson how to face them all. so no more "crazy anger" in office. hopefully we can be more solid than before. we want to bring in something good for this God's fields. Be blessed ladies..:))




ps,,we're going to ayam resto..eat till drop ladies, ignore our diet for a second :D :D

have a wonderfull weekend everyone :))

blackhole between us

everything has change since last monday. yeah people change,everything's change.. 

yesterday i went hangout with my girls to get some fresh air to shopping mall. when we took a seat to eat our favourite menu which is chicken steak by moen2, suddenly yosi cried, she look so beaten and told us that she saw both of we has change to her. i dont know exactly what does it means but when she start talking, i can understand slowly.

we're already bit away from her now, i confess it. me, yani and retno realized that those woman is not comfort enough as a friends to be. we're all assume that she's a hypocrite and we dont like it. why pretend to be happy if the fact is not?? why should pretend to act like an angel? absolutely disgusting!

but we cant ignore her actually, cause we are WW Sista. just give us lil more time to repaired it all. we have to,cause we're all friends. we just need extratime to calmdown. thats it

being calmdown

3 days passes since my anger about some damn new rules in office. day after day during my way to work, my mind always full filled with bad thought and bad plans,ough that was terrible. i think i was change become a devil,made me  so uncomfort and bad feeling much more than my anger before.
hmmpth feels so moron that i had made such a disgust thing on my social pages just to make the whole world know how angry i am and how cruel they are. everyday passes with horrible thought how can make some revenge to them..i can feel my killer insting was blew up,oo god this is soo awful T.T


now i realized how childish i am. i feel so shy with all i had done. this morning when i was on my way going to office, i ride my motorcycle slowly and felt the morning air has stroking my cheeks, i can breathing as deep as i want and that was so relieved. i can feel the advantage of coming office earlier, something that i never expected before (b'cause my anger absolutely) and all of those goodthing has changes my mind..:)
god knows how feel sorry i am, but its become useless if i'm not do something to fix it all. there's always a chance to be better, its all about choice, take it or leave it...sure i can do :))




ps,,
god help me to release this anger positively, i should be think clearly so i can see UR will. this time is also a difficult moment for our friendship. hopefully our friendship wouldn't end sooner

love loved love

yeahh..i had a wonderfull weekend with ari..love him so much..:D :D
spending time together after almost 2 month we didnt see each other. i felt that now he's more able to express his love openly, how he shown his seriousness to marry me..#he asking me to marry him three times a day, that feels was so amazing :))


we're separated now,but we'll meet again next month.. c u dear..:* :*

once upon a time lets eat something which healthier honey :D #he forced me to eat this :(

damn damn damn

i really2 getting angry this morning when i attended some meeting at office. too many NONSENSE and CRAZY RULES!! what the hell happen with their fucking head?? ohh i almost blow up dan kill them with my own hand >.<


they still had their brains to used,aren't they? or maybe they're all sense has die? so everything they spoken is just for their own personal interest hmm sounds disgusting huhh


i am get mad,my girlfriends get mad,everbody get mad. all of we feels so angry and disaponted with those damn rules. i really2 dont like this new rules, but i also dont  have any choice which made me even more angry. this is completely broke my workmood this morning, i even dont wanna doing anything. all i has done this morning was just cursing and twittering on my social pages,at least can make me a lilbit more relief and reduce my anger :)


unexpectedly my old officemate chatted me,and we talked about my mad this morning and he's talked about his new experience of his new job. hahahahaha he's still crazy, not change at all, still kind and cute either down to earth. thanks god i'm getting better now after have some conversation with him,talk to him is always fun :))

he has sent me his curent photo during his training in Jogja..the last pict is the most i like, how he shown his craziness. eventually i dont know since when he like to be photographed, i told him "banci kamera juga skrg" hahahaha

countdown

i had expecting, this damn thing gonna happen again. i had dressed up, all out make up but now everything become useless T.T

mother-daughter relationship

i always have a good relationship with my mom, i do. but cant denied that sometime some crash could happen in those relation. its very common and reasonable. and that was what happened between me and my mom, yeah she's getting annoying couple several days,made me sooo cranky >.<


but i realized how she mean to me,i really love her, i really do. we've experienced this many time,and so far we still a good partner in every ways,especially spending daddy's money hahahaha


"by the way momm,u're so annoying this several days,but actually i still love youuuuu...u're the best mom i ever had, and i would never wanted the other woman as my momm..:)) :* :* "

                                                                                                                     big hug and kissess...

                                                                                                               ur lovely shining daughter :))