recharge time

never easy to build a relationship which separated by distance and time even we've been "together" during 7 years. we had a long distance relationship much better than others, proven with a fact that we can survive for seven years later. its not easy without many effort and sacrifice as u know. we've fought desperately to hold our respective ego so we can still together as a boyfriend-girlfriend no matter what happen, no matter how long we apart. and so far we made it, we're still together after all of the storm hit us. we're a strong and happy couples, at least that's what i felt to yesterday :(


i have my own ego, so did he, but i never expected before that starting now i have to rid of all of my ego, trying to unify the two heads with 2 different ideas where we can live happily more than before.
we've made a decision that we'll take a few days to calm down, just to refresh and recharge our brain so we can think clearly what is the main purpose of our relation. for me, i'll use this occasion to re-think calmly, clear all my killer instinct which uncontrolled lately. i just need a time to cooling down actually, thats it.




ps,,,
hun, i just want u to know, that as a first-born child i had a lot of responsibility to my family (something that u'll never know maybe!). many things that u don't know yet about my family's life. i have an impulse which i regard as my responsibility at least to give them something valuable. i want to give something proudly, especially for my mommy before i'm get married and leave them all. thats why i'm so adamant with my desires yesterday. u'r rejection completely made me so disappointed, u never know how much you've really made me sad. i was crying in the middle of the night for 2 days. it feels like that u don't give me any chance to make my parents happier,showing 2 my damnneighbor that i can provide something that is material. aku benar2 terluka sampe pikiranku kemana-mana dan aku luar biasa sedih. i've decided to recieve ur decision gracefully, i would'nt regret it, i just need more time to convince myself that i still can made my parents proud and happy eventhough i had married to you and no longer live with them. i'll be fine...