Recovery Time Needed!!

Well, aku sama sekali tidak menyangka akan sesakit ini, even sebelumnya aku sudah menduga dan bahkan aku sudah menyiapkan hati untuk yang terburuk. Tapi bahkan seorang dewa sekalipun tidak bisa menyalahkan seseorang yg terlalu banyak berharap kan? Apa aku benar? Aku pikir begitu, setidaknya aku tau bahwa tidak seorang pun didunia ini yang punya hak lebih untuk mempermainkan hati atau menjungkirbalikkan kehidupan orang lain. NO ONE !!

nb,..datang ke kantor dengan muka pucat dan mata bengkak (lagi!), well sialan!!

Birthday Giftwishlist :)

Amazed

Found these sweet old lovesong…ooh I looked for this song along time ago….finally yayyy…:)

Everytime our eyes meet, This feelin' inside me,
Is almost more than I can take, Baby when you touch me,
I can feel how much you love me, And it just blows me away,
I've never been this close to anyone or anything, I can hear your thoughts,
I can see your dreams,

I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps gettin' better, I want to spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side, forever and ever, Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.

The smell of your skin, The taste of your kiss,
The way you whisper in the dark, Your hair all around me,
Baby you surround me, You touch every place in my heart,
You know it feels like the first time, Everytime,
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes,

I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps gettin' better, I want to spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side, forever and ever, Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you. ,

ps,...which lady does'nt melting?? :D

Bills Should Be Paid

Life is always about a choice, that’s true. There are always a price to paid.

As long as I live, honestly I rarely faced  with two different things which should be selected. I live my messy life to be balanced, and so far I think no one thing which should be sacrificed. At least that’s how I feel until this time. My life going so well..

I got some conversation this afternoon with bu devi when she was entered my room..here we go..:

She : non, km tenan ndak mau tak capeg-ke to?

Me : bukan ndak mw buk, tp ibuk kan tau situasi saya. Lha bisa ndak nek sy sudah capeg trs nti resign?

She : lha kamu masih lama ndak to?

Me : y plg ndak smpe habis kontrak juni tahun depan buk, tp klo pastinya saya jg blm tw.

She : ….*said about something I didn’t hear*…haduuh lha pie..golek tenogo meneh..

Me :…:|*shocked and so disappointed

Hmmmpt…u see? Somehow life’s running out beyond our reach. In this case finally I have to choose between my greatest love or my greatest passion. Ooh gosh, its definitely gonna be difficult..:(

My hubby-wanna be wants me to live together with him in Jakarta, because he works there. In other side I’m so in loooove with my job, I don’t wanna leave it anyway, but unfortunately I don’t have any choice. Sooner or later I still gonna be leaving my lovely current job and going to Jakarta after we get married officially.

Bukan, aku bukan sedang menyesali hubunganku dengan Ari. NOPE!! Hanya saja percakapan singkatku siang ini dengan bu devi made me a bit shocked. Its so ironic, when another people fight hardly to get the same thing which bu devi has offer to me, sadly I just rejected.  Im never expected before that she’s gonna asking me about that. Oo god, U know kindly how I really wanna stay here as big as my desire to get married with him as soon as possible. I love him so much and being together as husband-wife is my biggest dream I ever had. Nevertheless I cant lie to myself that I a fact I really wants this job. Well I just need to take a deep breath and do the right thing with the right way for the best result. Amennn…yayy.. J

HeartBeat

i dont wanna doing anything...well u guys just have to see me to know how i really got stress :(
pale look, black eyes and getting worst with a broken heart. yeahh, i've got the most terrible night i've ever had. i never as wrecked as this time before. Many thing hit me last night, made me more broken than i've ever think. Gosh, i never expected that i will got those terrible realities..and everything seems go wrong because i had a fighting with my guy too..:((
so, this morning i really feels so down, i need to get drunk and fall asleep. aku merasa tidak sanggup menghadapi apapun hari ini,i dont wanna meet anyone even just for a bit greeting. i want to be invisible, just me and my own world.
God, please let me through this wisely...its gonna be difficult, its gonna be hurt but its gonna be a great lesson for me too how's living the life itself.