bad day?? hell no!

the fact is i started this morning with a big annoyance to my mommy. i dont know exactly what the hell happen with her, but i guess its all because "those damn things" againn!! always like that every end of the month, and i'm almost getting fed up >.<


hopefully going to office can makes me feel better, but unfortunately seems like that this day i have to face a little bit more and more chaos. got a message from my sista just to receive a worse news that factually i had made a totally DAMN WRONG  for her friend's oriflames order,god damned ,its completely sucks :((
i think i cant think kindly today,my brain is stuck on my anger..god pleasee, i'm sure i cant stand up anymore if i must face the other worse today :(
 hopefully i can face this rest of the day much better than my morning, i know U'll understand... :))

epidemics,wtf ??!

everybody's geting sick and need some careness,moreover my grandma had to stay at hospital cause she has need more careness seriously hmm..
started with my aunt,and continued infected my cousins,sasa and micun. and then ME :(,titah,mbak wiwin,my dad,grandma,my mom and recently my sista,what the hell is going on actually >.<


ari said that we have to made some statements to health department in my town so they can perform fogging,emm several people said that those diseases caused by cikungunya mosquito,wtf!!
those illness is not dangerous enough, but those damn sickness made our whole ligament feels rigid and cant be moved,completely paralyzed. thats the primary symptoms other than fever and headeache. i was very lucky because it wasnt until a week i had cured. and here i am now,talking about an epidemics which has attack my whole family.what a story :(

payday mayday

payday's still next week but looking at my wallet makes me want to scream out oo gosh its very very depressing T.T


yeah its b'cause my own carelessness, used the money as like as i want without thingking, and now i'm very suffer with noone can be asking for some lent,poor me:(
i always remind myself that starting now i have to controling my shopping desires as well as i can do. i had lying to everyone,cheating myself just in case made myself feel safe from some kinda guilty,damn u sam! u're such a moron lady!!!
GREW UP !!!

this is ur homework sam,try 2 not screw it up! Good Luck !

masa prapaskah is coming

starting day with some worship at the church this morning b'cause today is Rabu abu. time 2 fasting and take some abstinence to be a better personally welcoming the Easter.


be blessed everyone :))

sisterhood

last night i've sent some message to my sista, i said that i really missing her...hmmpht sounds weird huhh b'cause the fact is we live at the same house. the main problem is we're rarely meet each other since she was being worker. im going to office when she's still sleeping and i was sleeping when she's coming back from her office. i felt lost of chemistry as a brother-sister, and i miss where we spending some quality time together. i have some ''missing sisterhood time'' on my heart which need to be completed. i dont wanna to be a stranger for my sista and all i wanna do is turn back time so we can spend more time to shopping or doing something which we're really loved :)


hopefully we can find the right time as soon as possible sista,cant wait to get the best hangout with u...i love u..:))

we're both completely twins and fabulous,don't we? :D :D

W.A.R.N.I.N.G !!

felt soo frustrated with my whole body this several days..i think im going look like an elephant :((

1.  nomore eating rice too much, just 5-7 tablespoon !!
2. aerobic on wednesday and sunday morning!
3. nomore fatty snacks
4. an apple and a cup of greentea in afternoon
5. swimming on thursday and friday
6. move,move,move and move!
7. nomore sleep after eat #trying so hard  dear :( 
8. wake up early morning so can get some excersice
9. jump,jump,jump and jump!
10. last but not least, PRAY :))

sure u can do dear :))

GO SKINNY, GO HEALTHY :)))

Quote of The Day

..but seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness,and all these things will be given to you as well..

(Matthew 6 : 33)

..be inspiring..

that's the "small" thing i always wanna do in my life. Yeah,be inspiring for another peoples in many part which can inspired for them to do as i do. i always imagine how it feels if i can change someone's life just like my life,only in some part life of course,except their personal life.


many big and famous peoples being my inspiration. not just the celebrities who always surounded a billion bucks money and fame so they can buy anything they want (some of us would to be like them,right? )but also the another "great" peoples who can change the world with their thought. its supposed to be awesome if through our thought we can make the better world,at least for the closest peoples around us :)
sooo,lets open our heart and our head so we can learn from them how we can make the worlds more beautiful in many parts of life. just be inspiring with ur own without lost urself..yayyy :))

the ugly truth

i was watching tv last night, and i was surprised with a movie in transtv i never seen before. "the ugly truth", thats the title. telling about a woman whose have a great carrier in a corporate mass media as a project leader,with her super perfection in every details of her job.in other side there's a guy with his 'mess' daily life either a popular host of a famous talkshow "the ugly truth". they hate each other when the first time they have to  work together as a team. But slowly but sure they're getting closer after the mess guy help this perfectionist woman to attract attention the perfect guy next door. unfortunately they fall in love each other and guess so finally they live happily ever after as a perfect opposite character couples.what a story :)

thats movie reminds me of my relationship with ari which has already tied for 7 years. we're such a couple on those movie. me as a perfectionist woman absolutely :P

in a fact we (as a girl) cant make certain or force ourself to fall in love with someone whom look PERFECT in every part of his life (smart, good looking, a perfect body look, rich guy blablabla u know what i mean :D) because like or not heart never cant be cheated! thats why God created a woman to complete a guy,b'coz everythings supposed to be in pairs,i guess :))

so never cheat urself only to make some peoples impressed just because ur mate had all the things every girl in the world's dreamed of. why? because money or earthly things NEVER CAN BUY LOVE AND HAPPINESS,its just compeleting. u know its true, be wise for ur own life.

good luck girls..:))

PS : anyway happy valentine's day everyone..not too late huhh b'coz i had some fighting with A on D-day  so i didnt celebrate yesterday,so weird hahaha :D

runaway baby

i was in love with bruno mars's performance last night at 54th Grammy awards..he was sooo amazing :))

anyway,congratulation for adele,she's completely swept away the awards :D

yani's graduate

yeahhh,,yani's got her graduation last saturday emm AKTA IV i guess hehee,,
on that weekend at the same day we had an appointmen with nuel in our favourite hangout place a.k.a JUS BAYANGKARA :))

 here we are,finally we can meet again,enjoy our brotherhood time,,,:))

 NB :::) nuel fullfill his promised that we'll still can spending time together every weekend.btw he looked more fat hahahaha we're all proud of u dear...:)

desolate weekend

yeahh,,feel so desolate this morning at office.. retno is being sick and must have some bedrest at home either yani had some graduation at her college. so i just stay with yosi huhuhu how quite,,:(

but happily i have an appointmen with nuel this afternoon after office hour end. we'll meet at bayangkara juice..i'm so curious what does he look like since 2 weeks we dont meet, i guess he's getting more fat hahaha,..

c u there brother..be good looking i wish :D :D

we'rent ready yet

got some "battle" with my boy yesterday made me sooo snitchy,, :((
again,again and again caused of the same damn thing !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!

thinking hardly about my relation made me got some conclusion WE'RENT READY YET TO GET MARRIED!! NOT THIS YEAR,i think we need more than 1 years later probably hufthhh how ridiculous :(

the power of success people

i just read a post from Diana Rikasari,one of fashion blogger i known,how she met "THE FRONTMAN" of PPR,the owner of housemode Gucci,Balenciaga,Botega Venneta and many more. She's kind of woman whose getting success in her young age,which has reach her susccess only with writing and documentating everything about fashion she'd love.

its explained and describe more than i ever thinked. sometimes i think, what the hell they has ate so they can be one of a powerfull and influential people in the world?? People like Donald trump, Hugh Jefnerr, Christian Loboutin, George Soros, and the newly frontman of PPR i known Francois-Henrry Pinault,whose can build their own bussiness empire successfully, made this world on their own hands, they're amazing and i'm so impressed.


and 1 big idea which always come in my head when i was read some articels about THEM is THEY WERE BORN TO BE SUCCESS AND RICH!! seemed like that its supposed to be their destiny!! no need extra power or more struggle to be success. what a dumb idea sam !!


now i realize, nothing can be reached without hardwork. sounds so simple but that the only one thing which will determine the final result. what our future will be depends on what our effort will do. thats all

"Lighters" - Eminem feat. Bruno Mars (Alex Goot, Luke Conard, Chad Sugg ...

this guys in this video's awesome, either their voice...Love it :))

driving License a.k.a SIM

came into police resort (again!) for the third time in 2 months due to get a driving license this morning by myself. Gosh,i almost gave up and didnt want 2 continue what i've been started. This fucking bussines almost made me soo desperate. Not only because a large number that i have to pay but also about manythings which wasting my time :((

RIBET,RIBET,RIBET DANNNN RIBETTTTT!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!

yeahhh finally i got it. thankiuuu thankiuu god,now i dont need cameback 2 police station and dealing face 2 face with all of annoying policemans there yayyyy :))

1st day

feels very weird,,
this morning is the 1st day nuel wouldnt come to the office anymore. yeah, he's just gone..and a little farewell party between us yesterday feels not enough. my heart is broken, i dont know trully but im just feel alone this morning. feels nothing,feels like the half of my heart beat has gone..

i dont want to take this too personaly, but im still feel lonely. very weird and annoying :(
aku tidak tahu harus melakukan apa,bahkan aku tidak ingin melakukan apapun. I just wanna sleep,trying 2 forget everything 4 a while,just take a deep breath for a second..:((

never easy to loose someone who has been stay with us for a long time. had some ''craziest" and made some mess everywhere we are, laugh and crazy together hmmm capek sendiri !@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!
we're just friends,i never expect too much,.. 
dya baru pergi kmrn,tp dah pengen ketemu ajah hahaha..byasanya jam segini dya dah "sibuk" gangguin aku,YMan pekok2an,nek gag y brisik di grup ww sista sambil ngomongin medit dan si tomcat anak baru hahaha dasar wong edyannnn :D :D

but life still must go on sam, nuel's life too,,just pray for him in order to get the better job out there. and we'll always to be a FRIENDS FOREVER..:))

goodluck my bro...


NB : mbok galak will be miss u :P