lonely lonesome

i felt soo lonely for several days lately..yap, ari been soooo busy :((


we had talked about this situation many times before, so i think its gonna be useless if i protested and demanded a lot of attention from him. i can kindly understand with all of his responsibility on his job, but sometimes when i was "weak", when i was really "need" him to "beside" me, in other side he's completely can't leave his job for a while so its really painfull for me T.T


i know exactly that all of he has been done is for us, he's preparing our future (that's what he always said to me), but haven't u heard that the present is as important as the future? yeahh at least that for me, but in reality that was not for him hmppth #the differences again ckckckc
soo this is me now, i had been sad and cry for several night but now its time for me to have a good time personally with my ladies! Lets rock on girls, yayy :D :D

choco cholate

i love chocholate, everybody's love chocholate. anyone out there doest'n loves chocolate? poor them :D


there was along time ago when i wanna try some kinda body treatment using chocolate. as a choco food lover basically, i'm so curious what does body treatments using chocolate feels like. then i started looking for a body treatment package in some beauty salon and aesthetic center. aaaannnnd foillaaaaa!! i got it in "larissa aesthetic center". Dark Chocolate Facial, about 70.000 IDR. Look perfect :D :)


from the 1st step of the treatment, i can feels, i can smell dark chocolate fulfill my whole face. ohh its awesome #i stuck out my tongue trying to reach the chocolate which adhere around my corner lips hahaha!


aanndddd these moment when i was on treatment #ary said that i look like on mummification :D

watch & learn

something i had learned this morning is.."NO MATTER HOW HARD LIFE IS, THE PARENTS WOULD ALWAYS TRYING TO GIVE THE BEST FOR THEIR CHILDREN. ALWAYS, WITHOUT EXCEPTION "




ps..
i saw an amazing instance how a father strive to take and get a ride his son with his old bike to go to school. A father with his pale look and his emaciated body. But i saw a passion and a big hopefulness of course on his face,modest expectation to his son that  in the future his son will get the better life than his parents. I'm soo moved until dropped a tear..T_T


seorang ayah yang rela memberikan segala yang terbaik dari kekurangannya untuk anaknya, don't u think that these was soo amazing??
oh my God, i just can pray, that YOU will added more wisdom and fortunes for those family. Amen


from now on, everyone out there, be honor to u're parents, no matter what are their social and economic conditions. just believe that they'll never stop to always give u the best and fulfill u're life with the deepest and pureness love that u can't ever paid back..:)

arghhhh :((

i was really got angry this morning when i just arrived at office. Yepp, someone intentionally with her "DAMN BIG MOUTH" talked about my unpleasant accident yesterday. i'm sooo despiteful >.< !!!


for a moment i really want to slap her face, pull out her hair from her head, let her know how i really doesnt like every word which comes out from her fucking mouth!!
but after i sent a message to Ary, told him about my unpleasant mood this morning at office caused by those "lidah tak bertuan", and then Ary calling me back, we talked, we laughed, so this is me now..got more relaxed. i'm so thankfull to have him, how he always can easeful me when i get mad about something :)


thanks dear :))

while,, :D

many things happened during this week,,daddy has came home, mommy  got her happyness again, nongki with her new bussiness, me with my new passion in make up (i have bought new eye shadow by oriflame :P),ari with his new project in Bogor (made us got fighting several days ago), me (again!) with my new dream about smartphone (nokia Lumia i'll gotcha u soon!), and many things happened too at "the most horrible office in da world) #puke


but most of all, there are always wisdom behind the disaster..have a good day everyone :))

 while joined flower arranger club in the church :D #not bad huhh :))

 while got some "enter wind" at office :(

 while paid electricity bills (this was my 1st visit :p)

 while mommy didnt cook :(

 while felt so bored at office hour #i have a very2 round face :D

how do i lookk?? single, ugly and desperate hahahaha

wisata rohani,wisata jasmani

Selamat Hari Raya Kenaikan Tuhan Yesus ke Surga....be bLessed everyone :))

soulmates

something which always on my mind about "soulmates" is that couples whose can called as soulmates is only on a fairytale, never can be found in this real world. 


but recently i realized something, a story of a couples who can called as a soulmates was happened near me. Yapp, they are my parents, what a surprise :))
my dad is gone for attending PLPG, which held along 10 days in Solo so remaining at home is just me, mom and my sista. At the first day, my dad was going home, it means he didnt stay at hotel which had provided by the organizer. when i was asking him why he'd coming back home, he said "can't be apart from ur mom" (sok sweet beyudd deh babeku!) hahahaha,,
and when my dad didn't going home anymore caused by many tasks to be done, u know what, my mom going sick. at the first i just expect that her sickness is becaused she's too exhausted but in a fact my dad's experienced the same thing there. its not about accidental, isn't it? i think this is what's referred to as SOULMATEs. 


.....Soulmates is the people who's can't laugh or cry without you around, the people who always never forget to "bring" u in his success and always hold ur hands eventhough u're in "downstair"..... 
                                                                                                                              ita kusmanto :)

raker ceria

main casts ;
yani as miss secretary
retno as miss treasurer
me as miss consumption coordinator :))
yosi as my assistance
.....aaaanndddd...here we aree...:D :D

"4 magic words"

Ari : hon, please look at me. i want to tell u something important (hold my hand, and take a deep breath)
me : hmm...
Ari : look at me please, i beg u..
me : okay,okay...now what?? (look at him at the eyes, try to find "something")
Ari :...WILL YOU MARRY ME...??
me : ............... (mlongo :-0)
( silent for a moment)


me : Yes i do..:)


.........embracing each other....oo eemm jiieee...thanks God :)))

           

black singer

sooo inn loooovee with this song by Leona Lewis. the music, the lyrics and the singer's sooo amazing!! Love it :))

it's been the longest winter without you

i dont know where to turn to

see, somehow i can't forget you

after all that we've been through

going coming, thought i heard a knock

who's there? No one

thinking that i deserve it

now i realize that i really didn't know

if u didn't notice, boy, u mean everything

quickly i'm learning to love again

all i know is i'm going be okay

thought i couldn't live without you

its gonna hurts when it heals too

it'll all get better in time

eventhough i really love you

i'm gonna smile cause i deserve too

it'll all get better in time :))

( this song's remind us,especially for the girls, no matter how hard our problem is, just believe that God will make all better in time :D )

one last song which made me really crazy about is "ave maria" by Beyonce Knowless. this song's awesome too :))

ps,,,don't you think that every black singers are really has God's voice?? hehehe :)))

quote of the day

..u can always lying 2 everyone, hiding from this worLd to cover up all of ur faults , but not onto yourseLf and me..

ita kusmanto

cuticuticuti

soo happy that yesterday finally i can rest off my whole body at home. all i had done during my "stole holiday" was just lay down on my bed calmly, that was really2 enjoyable :D


woke up in the morning at 06.30 AM, and then took some breakfast with sista and her friend's selly, watching cartoon on tivi (something which i rarely doing anymore *almost never done*, after i had to worked) and then comeback to my bed, sleeping beauty zzzzz zzzzzz #ooh i'm freeeeeee..drooling eyes jump jump jump :D :D


woke up for the 2nd time at 11.30 AM, took a shower and going to the mall with my cousins. we ate, took a look around and then shoopppiiingggg woooooiiilhaaaaaa..thanks God finally i can find my passion in shop again #i was really feel soo depressed when i think that i had lost my shopping lust. 

lovely lovely day, lovely lovely shooppps yayyy :D :D

oleh-oLehh :D

loooooovee this oleh2 so muchh...all is deliciouse :D

#thanks buddy :* :*

loveee this chocolate very much...enakk gilaaaaaakkk :))) 

new gloves,lovely gloves,love pink :D

welcome May

april was running out soo fast. Many things happened during april, love and affection, joy and sorrow comes and go. for me, april was soo lovely month #b'cause at those month i and ari started talk about and planning our "future" a.k.a our wedding :))
at those april too finally i've got some confidence for steadying myself and move bravely to start a new life in jakarta (ohh this is definately not easy dear, but i've made my decision, i have to, no doubt :D


hopefully this newly May going to be a lovely month 2 like another month before. Be blessed everyone..Yayyyy :))