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i think i had lost my mind..aku seperti kesetanan blanja akhir2 ini, smpe aku gag brani liat "saving magic book" yang selama ini nemenin aku ngatur keuangan. everything i purchased i wrote on that book. so far going so well, really help me to saving money day by day sampe aku bisa nabung sedikit demi sedikit.

tapi bulan ini, aku bener2 seperti kesetanan, gag mkir panjang klo mo beli sesuatu (aku keranjingan blanja online akhir2 ini since my very first shoes i purchased at online shop has coming and i really satisfied and get addicted!), gtu liat barang eyecatching lgs aja ini tangan kyk gerak reflek " made an order" click sana sini smpe tiba akhirnya transfer ke bank, confirm payment dan MENYESAL!! ohh Tuhannnn, save meeeeee :((

i don't even know how that online shop can affecting me viciously,  i feels like hypnotized and doesnt remember anything, include my guy's warning hihihhi...i'm very sure what's gonna happen if he knows what many kind of items i had purchased, he would be so angry :D :D

i never felt this way before, i never get this addiction during my intire life, so far i always think hard before i spent my money even for a small or cheap items. but now (ohh i'm getting lament AGAIN, if i remember how many kind of items which gonna come to my door sooner!) i'm waiting for the next shoes which is on production (after my rings, my "minimal" blouse, my "extra payment" for my sista, my a pair of underwear by pierre card*in, and my next order on inspiredbyluce.com) aaaaaaaaa...please God save meeeeeeee once agaiiiinnnn T______T

it should be stopped, isnt it?actually i'm not regretting everythings i bought, i just feel didnt any comfy in my heart and feel so guilty. rasanya tu gag enak bgt di hati, kyk ada sesuatu yg mengganjal dan bikin gag tenang. i know it perfectly what makes me feel like this, unfortunately i dont have any bravery to admit it all..forgive me God...:(