when i and hubby decided to get married, we both had a deal that me will follow him move to Jakarta. Which is mean that i have to say goodbye with my family, my best lovely sister ever and of course my job in Widya wacana :(
i realized that from now i just have to live for my new little family, i want to give my whole life just for my hubby and our future life. honestly started from our deal, i feel really hard to moving out to Jakarta. I really really hateeee those town. I once said, i could live anywhere except Jakarta. Dunno, but in my mindset jakarta is hell. Traffic jam, bad weather, criminality, social inequality, flood etc was my excuses to not to live there. I personally couldn't imagine having to raise my babies in those bad social life and environment. And i choose Bandung instead. But have to be apart (again!) with hubby is more scariest than all my excuses i had say before. Fiuuhhhhh...what a choice --_--
and after we officially married, we made our new dealing that i'm gonna moving out to Jakarta by the end of this September. First week have to be apart from hubby caused by he have to be back in Jakarta for his job, i still feel okay. Even i slept soo tightly at night But when he called me and told me that he feels really lonely suddenly i cried sooo loud. feels so sad and beaten yet hurt knowing that as a wife i still letting my hubby feel lonely and unhappy T_T
and when we met again last weekend, i can feel my lust to move to Jakarta as soon as possible. i really wanna be there, i want to always be beside him. companying, hug and kiss him everyday, prepare his breakfast & lunch, welcoming in the door when he's come back from office and sooo many things i want to do for him. Nevertheless still too many responsibilities here, waiting to be done. And i'm not a cower, run away from anything just for my own importance. Well this is not easy, but God always give a way for everyone who's never stop trying and praying..:))
wait me babyyyyy....:* :*
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