Fearness

i know it sound silly even childish when i say if i'm feeling scary with all my imagines about my future lives in Jakarta. God i already worry about something which is not coming yet :(

its all began when i have talked with my ex-officemate whose already get married about six month ago. she has read my "status" on my page and then we're got messaging each other. talk about this & that, her newly housewife experience, bla bla bla and finally at the end of our coversations i realized about one thing, she tried to intimidating me as much as she can do, just like a couples month ago when she was still being my officemate #she doesn't change at all *_*

honestly, a few hours later since our conversations has done, i really got influenced with all of her "retelling story" about the "status exchange". From boyfriend-girlfriend onto husband-wife. She also told me about her girlfriend's experience who has been married almost simultaneously with her, that this girl sue for divorce just because she couldn't kindly received her husband's characteristic which is known after they're get married. How can it happen? that's too shallow, isn't it?

Its scare me a lot, i swear, even i cried in my room after i arrived at home because my mind going anywhere. After cried for a moment & then i fall asleep, woke up much better & pray to God last night. Its calm me down enough, but not take my worry away 100%. I feel anxious, scary and even more confused T__T